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Junior,
2000.Junior
October 2000
Life Goes On!
Wake Up Call Number One!!!
(A New Beginning)
I woke up one day and realized that life must go on and I need to be the star of it! I said to myself, "from now on I am taking chances with life, I'm going to ride it!" This was not an easy change for me. I smiled, laughed, cried, got more addicted to sex, (I am mentioning it now because I failed to mention it in my last interview), I have accomplished what no one from my family has ever accomplished, danced my booty away, had my heart broken several times, believed in love again, and learned to appreciate the gift of life. I said, "It's party time!"
Party time it was indeed! I started having sex again. Lots of sex, lots of protected sex, that is. I would have sex with multiple partners in one day. I have slept with at least two thousand individuals. I went to sex clubs, bathhouses, parks, public restrooms, bars, and even the streets to pick up tricks. I think my record was twenty in one day. I get such a thrill when I have sex with multiple partners. But you know what? Afterwards I felt empty. Something inside made me desire this activity that led me to self-destruction. Often times, I was so tired that I would call in sick. When I called in sick, there were times that I looked for more sex. What a tragedy!
"I am Junior and I am suffering from sexual compulsive behavior." I admit it now, not just to myself, but to the world. I guess it is true, "the first step to recovery is admitting that the problem exists." Now, all I have to do is finish up the last eleven steps. Pray for me that I find the courage to fight this dreadful addiction, for without escaping it I will be doomed to more self-destruction. This journey will not be easy, just stay with me please!!! "Work in progress" as this chapter in my life should be appropriately titled.
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