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Jeff
July 7, 1995
MW: Where do you see yourself right now?
Jeff: Actually, it's funny you should ask. My two-year plan is to go back to get a degree in social services, in AIDS outreach. I want to pursue gay and lesbian culture and the way our history is passed on. I'd like to become more politically active. I'm going to own a car, and I'm going to move to LA in 1997. I probably won't be right in LA. Until last night, a major part of the plan was that I was going to take my lover back with me, and we were going to go as the shining victors, the prodigal sons returning from their long, arduous, impossible tasks. I adore him and I'd do anything for him. But sometimes you just have to say, "Hey, I love you and I let you go."
It scares me sometimes when I think about what the future might bring. When I have little aches, complaints I think, "This might be it." On the other hand, sometimes I feel a little bit jaded. I've been living with HIV for 7 years, I've lost a lover, I lost a life partner. I think when I grow up I want to be a peer counselor. It will be a smooth transition, a client of the AIDS machine, promoting things from the inside.
Jeff, 1995, displays the flyer his mom used to find him when he ran away at 13. |
MW: Do you have anything else that you haven't talked about that...
Jeff: I feel needs to be addressed? Only that the government's behaved reprehensibly by turning a blind eye and a deaf ear continually. At this point we pick ourselves up the by the bootstraps if we can't rely on them. Eventually it will get to the point where the government is going to have to do something.
I definitely believe that there's some kind of greater plan. I just don't understand what the goal is. I think that once I finally let go of that it will be much easier for me to live in peace.
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