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Kathryn & Baby, 2000.Jeff,
1998
When Jeff left treatment he stayed committed to his program, never relapsing into drug use. He went to City College and, in 1998, got a job at Walden House, a recovery program in San Francisco, working with adolescent boys around their recovery, HIV education, and prevention.
05/22/98
I found a set of journals from Aug (my first day clean) to Nov. I found it
very inspiring to read where I was and remember how I got here.
Gosh my life has changed so much! Getting clean, moving house, going back
to school, in and out of relationships. I hate growing. The process is so
painful. I have hope today. I plan for the future I want. My life is constantly
filled with love and joy. Today some of it is coming from me.
I am grateful for god's vigilance. I am grateful for my resourcefulness.
I eat and sleep everyday. I am accountable.
I get very confused by my interaction with other people. Sometimes I think
it would be easier all alone. I don't truly believe that but I notice
a significant lack of drama when no one else is around. Not that I'm
blaming anyone, I know it all comes from me; but I wonder if this work wouldn't
be much smoother without distractions. Maybe the distractions are where my
work lies?
Am I a sex addict? Am I a love addict? Am I just automatically addicted to
everything?
All of these drugs are making my life so much longer. There's a lesson
in there somewhere.
07/09/98
I feel so powerful in my life right now. My body is strong. My mind is stretching.
I'm taking risks. My heart feels ready to burst open with joy. And
I am still so afraid.
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